Earlier this morning I posted an entry that was entitled Disconnected. I accidentally deleted it instead of saving it. I spoke to several friends on retrieving the entry, but it's gone forever.

I just spoke to another friend, who told me there are no accidents. I use this in my art, but, have a tough time doing it with my life.

Trusting that what you nee, will come to you. A great concept in theory, but, does it work? I say yes.The universe/God/higher pwer, brings you everything you need. It may not be what you want, but it's almost always what you need.

It's been a challenging month to say the least. But, by continuing to put myself out there, things happen. Things beyond my control and if you know me at all, you know I'm a huuuuuge control freak! Letting go and Trusting


As I continue this path. I remember:

The way to build endurance is to endure. The way to build confidence at doing anything is to practice doing it.

The way to build a friendship is by being a friend. The way to build trust is by being trustworthy.

The way to build wealth is by creating and providing value. The way to build a reputation for integrity is by being sincere and honest.

The way to build a life of meaning and fulfillment is by honoring and valuing every moment. The way to build a future that's bright is by making the most of all you have in the present.

The way to build strength is by welcoming challenge. The way to build wisdom is by exercising your mind and your heart together.

The way to build true greatness is by living with positive purpose and passion. The way to build whatever you want is to give the best of whatever you have

If you're going to start sometime, why not now

It's been a rough month for me mentally and yes, physically.

Sales are slow this summer and my motivation to be creative, was halted a bit by fractured ribs as well as a stomach virus. All that said, life goes on. I reminded myself that it's all about the direction you are thinking.

Where you go in life is determined by the direction you travel. That seems obvious enough right? But, too often it is forgotten when making the moment-by-moment choices that make those directions. Bear with me, I'll try to explain.

The direction that is easiest or most comfortable usually does not lead to a destination that is the most desirable....duh. That's because creating something something worth while involves challenge, effort, sacrifice, and moving out of your comfort zone....again, duh.

Imagine what would happen if you went for a drive in your car, and at every intersection you selected the road with the least amount of traffic. You would probably have a pleasant, comfortable drive, but would have a very difficult time getting anywhere in particular.

Traveling through life works kinda the same way. If you always take the easiest, most comfortable road, you make it impossible to reach a destination of your choosing. The choices you make each moment are what control your direction. And the direction you choose to maintain will determine the destination at which you arrive.

To really get to where you want to go, move at every chance in the direction that will take you there.

And this brings up the piece I'm almost finished with called Drive.

In Spain, particularly Madrid as well as Barcelona, there were many handicap walk ways. Like the Metro subway stops, they were every where.



I decided to sketch and start to paint the wheel chair symbol on the canvas, because, it symbolized my experience in Spain. The symbol will be painted in a simple white



I didn't know how it was going to happen, that, I would travel abroad in a wheelchair, but, with the help of many great friends, I did. A time I'll never forget and am very grateful.

So go find your direction.

If you're gonna start sometime, why not now

I walked in yesterday to The Lone Star Office to hand in a donation. The director of the ride, informed me that I was nominated for the Run Walk Ride Fundraising Council as a potential honoree for my efforts with the ride. I was not chosen, but, was a part of 6 finalists city wide.

I was given a certificate of merit. It made me think...



Why do I do what I do and what exactly am I?

In the past I rode for different reasons. Since, I've been back to Dallas, riding with my current condition, reminds me that anything is possible.

I have my share of bad days, I always have, but, I am someone who has always thought outside the box.

Recently, people have asked me if PML is contagious, ignorance is not always bliss. Ignorance is contagious, this I know. I am undergoing some big stuff personally. One of the bi-products of living-we all are. It always hurts to think of yourself as different. I wish I could explain more. I know the contagious comments were stupid, but, it doesn't stop the sting.

For most of human history, the daily lives of ordinary people were literally consumed with simply staying alive. Top priorities were getting enough food to eat, maintaining some kind of shelter, having clothes to keep warm, and avoiding dangerous threats such as wild animals and invading humans.

By forming and participating in civilization I believe, we have largely freed ourselves from these immediate things. We try to develop systems which provide food, clothing, shelter and physical security.

As a result, the immediate, physical challenge of everyday life has for the biggest part, disappeared. Our consequences have grown more long term. A pre-historic hunter would have gone hungry very quickly had he suddenly chosen not to work. The modern-day worker can use savings, credit cards and food stamps to hang on through years of unemployment without going hungry.

Life without challenge is meaningless, it's just tough and really sucky at times. As our most basic needs are met, we (I) develop higher and higher aspirations in order to provide a challenge. In some ways this goes against our nature, because for thousands of years mere survival was challenge enough.

Think about your legacy for a moment. Realize that thousands of years of blood and sweat and tears have put you where you are -- with your microwave oven, air-conditioned car, Internet access, 50-channel cable TV, cellular phone, supermarket and dishwasher. The old challenges have been met. To bring something to your life demands that your go after you're (my) own challenges. It is an exciting and scarey proposition and a serious responsibility.

I forget as lot that I'm here for a reason. I don't have to understand the reason, but, I do have to participate

If you're gonna start sometime, why not now

I haven't blogged in a bit and for that I'm sorry.

Many things have happened this past month. On the physical side I fell 3 weeks ago and had a friend take me to emergency, turns out I have 2 fractured ribs.




I also came down with a nasty stomach virus, last week. All that said, I'm ok. I was given the ok to ride the lone star ride and the stomach virus, be gone.

I'm happy to announce that to date I've raised $300.00 toward my goal of $1,000.00. The ride is September the 25th and 26th. Mu goal for riding this year is 100 miles in 2 day, so cross your fingers. Here is the link to my website...

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On the business front I had a great group artshow with some very talented individuals






I was happy to sell a new piece at the show. Color de la Color, inspired by my recent Spain trip!



On the personal side, I'm happy to announce that I tried out and made the 31rst season of a singing member of The Turtle Creek Chorale.

Last night was the first rehearsal and it's going to be a great season.

I want to apologize for staying out of touch. I've been emotionallty down and wanted to protect you as a reader. I know now this is wrong...we all have obstacles and I'm currently working thru mine.


I'm going to write more soon, but, I can wrap up this past handful of weeks by saying they were shit. But, everything happens for a reason and I believe there was a reason.

I hope everyone is having at least an ok day, talk very soon, promise

If you're gonna start sometime, why not now

As I started the day, yesterday, I decided, after Mom suggesting it, taking Gracie with me.

I haven't taken Gracie out since I was diagnosed with P.M.L. something she and I always loved.

Here are some pics of our day

The first is Gracie, patiently waiting as I pick up art in Addison Texas.



After more errands, it was her turn. I decided to take her to a park close to where I use to live on Anita Street. It was like she was meeting an old friend...






The great thing about yesterday was taking a chance and thinking outside the box., Seeing Gracie out and about, reminded me of myself and how I felt coming home again.

She was all smiles the entire day. This is something I'll be doing more of soon.



I also thought about what this means for me and others like me. I've decided to do a small video, describing my life with PML. This is what I saw when I googled PML on youtube the first time I found out

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I'm talking with a friend about a month long project, coping with PML and Aids. Not sure where this is going, but, hoping to start this fall. The video you just saw devasted me. I want to do a video of living with the diseas.

Here is a painting I've been working on called Organic Fractal-a 12x12 piece looking for a new home



If you're gonna start sometime, why not now